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[essen]

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"Who the fuck is it now?"

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[essen]

I dont really sleep thru the nite I just sleep as much as I can

[notvaljean]

really?
there isn't anything that helps?

[essen]

Not realy I just deel with it its been like this for A while

I just didnt think anyone else would have to see it

[notvaljean]

wish i hadn't

uh
you don't usually dream about cutting me apart, right?

[essen]

no dipshit i dont

i think im usually on the table instead anyway

[notvaljean]

what
seriously?

did they actually try to do that to you?

[essen]

if the mp won the trial
then id probbly have ended up that way
they wantd to disect me

[notvaljean]

that's seriously fucked up

I mean, you heal and everything, but



yeah
fucked up

[Quietly very glad he joined the Survey Corps instead now...]

[essen]

im sure theres a limit and im sure they could find it ive already learnd it takes a while for my lims to gro bak but idk about anything else
i wont lie and i dont talk to mikasa or armin about it but im pretty sure if things go wrong with plans and my usefulness runs out its gonna happen anyway or if we slip up and they kidnap me

im just trying to accept it that i mite end up executed at the end of all this

if all the titans are gone no ones gonna want one hanging around and i dont blame them i guess

[notvaljean]

what the FUCK
what kind of attitude is that?

Trost would still be infested with titans if you hadn't blocked the hole
the fucking CUNT Female Titan would've killed EVERYONE if you hadn't distracted her
the GODDAMN CAPITAL would have gotten destroyed if you hadn't stopped that BITCH

that is complete and total BULLSHIT
you might be a giant tool but you're the best chance we have against them
and they want to ruin that by dissecting you?
BULL
SHIT


Survey Corps won't let that happen

[essen]

theres a lot of shit going on behind the scenes were discovering
i dont know about it all yet but it looks like everythings more fucked p than we thought
but yea the survey corps
everyones trying their hardest rite now to do what they can about everything
its getting complicated as fuck
i dont think i ever wanted this i just wanted to get rid of thetitans thats all but its just something else to com to terms with now

i didnt think id see you get so angry on my behaf here honestly

thats why i missed this u because even if ur a shit you still have my bak ad keep me from lsin trak of wat to focus on

so im kinda glad



sorry i cut you up

[notvaljean]

yeah, well

I got sent home
I was only gone from here for a day, but I was back home for about a month
went outside the walls, fought the titans
found out the truth about Annie

I thought this place was a dream
but
I wanted to dream about it every night
because he's here

you know who I mean

so yeah, I have your back
I never didn't have your back
but don't judge me for wanting more time

don't do it in real life, and we're good

[essen]

im still gonna judge you but i cant act like theres not people

that id like more time with

a lot of people now


but yea alrite thats a promise i can keep as long as you dont betray me too

i cant keep it after that

WRITES A HANNES APP JUST TO MAKE EREN EAT THOSE WORDS

[notvaljean]

and if those people were here
I think you'd feel the same way

I'm not going to betray you, dicksnacker
you really think I'd be on any side that that bitch fought for?

YOU ARE VILE

[essen]

i dont know a part of me would want to see them
and then another part doesnt want to see them again

i cant face them again because everyone of them died because of me
for one reason or another

yea ur too simple to try and be a part of a plot that big

[notvaljean]

yeah
I know the feeling

it's not because I'm too simple, you jackass
it's because I'M NOT A FUCKING TRAITOR

[essen]

enjoy your time while uve got it i guess

ive got to work on getting back regardless


u sure cause i dunno man i think its just cause ur too thick too recruit

[notvaljean]

I intend to

time doesn't pass when you're here
I went right back to where I left
so it's not like you're missing anything important

yeah, you tell yourself that
it's because I'm not a monster
like you
you're not one either
even if you are an obnoxious little pissant

[essen]

waiting here is driving me crazy already
theres so much i have to do
relaxing just doesnt feel like an option its never been on

ha

ur like armin u really think that
that im not a monster either

i guess ill take obnoxious pissant over monster any day
even if its from a gigantic shitstain like u

[notvaljean]

monsters aren't fighting the good fight
I think you're a shitty person who only thinks about himself and maybe a few other people, but you're not a monster

[essen]

ive only got the time and energy to care about a few people

besides i dont have it in me to give a shit about assholes thats why i admired marco cause he had it in him to put up with fuckheads

[notvaljean]

I used to think that too
and look where it got me

Marco was the best out of all of us
he still is

[essen]

i think thats just because ur u
the 104th and the commanders are all i can really worry about for now

its all any of us have at this point anyway so fucki t

the best is a pretty tall place to put him but hes always been good at what he does

[notvaljean]

the BEST

you even said you'd be a team if he was leading it
I know you're all fancy and on Levi's team now, but before you knew about shifting, you said that

[essen]

i still would

but best is a lot to put on someone