There must be something wrong with me...there are so many things people find normal or acceptable and I can't even begin to understand why...I just don't get it.
Everyone just thinks with their dicks! [He's usually not so crude but...it's a good way to get his point across.] Or they just don't think at all...I suppose it's human nature to be selfish but this place makes people indulgent in all the wrong ways. I hate it, Eren!
[He knows he sounds whiny and that all he's doing is complaining, but it's been building for awhile now.]
Who the hell gets off on choking?! Who in their right mind would think I'd be comfortable with having to live under the same roof as Bertolt?! I don't get it, Eren...I just don't.
[ He sighs. Wow, this is kind of a convoluted situation, isn't it? Needless to ask, someone in 104th house done fucked up or maybe Armin has fucked up, but either way something major has gone down. ]
Woah, woah, listen... you know as well as I do people don't think. We've known that since we were kids and humans haven't changed any here, especially our team. I don't like it either because everyone is idle but you can only push a horse so much before it'll either kick you or you'll run out of strength. In the end, you're not doing what they are. You're not losing yourself to your desires, right? That's what matters if that's what's bothering you.... Don't let their actions drive you up a wall.
As far as that goes, I don't know, really, but I don't know a lot about this sexuality stuff to begin with.
And as far as Bertolt goes... if you don't want to live with him, don't. Move in with me. Bring Mikasa, too, if she wants to come, but Ymir's gone now and you have a choice. I don't have a great place and I only have one bed but... I'd want you here anyway.
[That...actually makes him visibly brighten. Good riddance, he wants to say, but he bites his tongue to stop himself from doing so. Instead he moves to settle himself in Eren's lap, resting his head against the boy's shoulder.]
I want to. I want to be with you, Eren. [He finds one of Eren's hands, lacing their fingers together instinctively.] I told Jean and Marco I'd go back, though...
So it seems. At the very least, she hasn't been here.
[ Though, he's pretty damn sure she is gone gone. She didn't have any reason to avoid him.
He welcomes Armin into his lap, scooting his legs so he can sit on him comfortably. He lets Armin grasp his hands and presses his cheek against his head.]
So? Fuck 'em, for now. It's not worth you feeling even worse... just stay with me.
[ Eren's hand leave Armin's to encompass him again, fingers burrowing into Armin's hair to press at his neck as his other palm settles on his side, arm firmly around his back. ]
Right now, don't do anything. Just.... breathe. Calm down.
[ Eren, for once, does not know what the right answer is either. He doesn't even know if what he's doing right now is really helping anything in the long run, but all he can feel himself focus on is Armin and how tight his body is against him and that's enough to draw actions from him, at least. If he can at least calm him down, the most immediate issue, maybe other solutions will arise from it. ]
[There's a long sigh after a good few minutes pass and Armin's calmed down a bit more. He feels utterly pathetic like this, practically moping on Eren just because he can't get his shit together or deal with it, as it were. One would think after living here for a few months it'd be easier instead of more difficult. The opposite seemed to be true in Armin's case.]
[ Eren just rests there, stroking Armin's hair and the nape of his neck with his fingers, pulling out any patience he had as a person to put into this moment. ]
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I can't keep doing this...this place, it's eating me alive, Eren.
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Listen, you're being too vague. I can't help you this way. What's wrong? Why do you feel like you're going crazy?
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[He knows he sounds whiny and that all he's doing is complaining, but it's been building for awhile now.]
Who the hell gets off on choking?! Who in their right mind would think I'd be comfortable with having to live under the same roof as Bertolt?! I don't get it, Eren...I just don't.
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Woah, woah, listen... you know as well as I do people don't think. We've known that since we were kids and humans haven't changed any here, especially our team. I don't like it either because everyone is idle but you can only push a horse so much before it'll either kick you or you'll run out of strength. In the end, you're not doing what they are. You're not losing yourself to your desires, right? That's what matters if that's what's bothering you.... Don't let their actions drive you up a wall.
As far as that goes, I don't know, really, but I don't know a lot about this sexuality stuff to begin with.
And as far as Bertolt goes... if you don't want to live with him, don't. Move in with me. Bring Mikasa, too, if she wants to come, but Ymir's gone now and you have a choice. I don't have a great place and I only have one bed but... I'd want you here anyway.
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[That...actually makes him visibly brighten. Good riddance, he wants to say, but he bites his tongue to stop himself from doing so. Instead he moves to settle himself in Eren's lap, resting his head against the boy's shoulder.]
I want to. I want to be with you, Eren. [He finds one of Eren's hands, lacing their fingers together instinctively.] I told Jean and Marco I'd go back, though...
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[ Though, he's pretty damn sure she is gone gone. She didn't have any reason to avoid him.
He welcomes Armin into his lap, scooting his legs so he can sit on him comfortably. He lets Armin grasp his hands and presses his cheek against his head.]
So? Fuck 'em, for now. It's not worth you feeling even worse... just stay with me.
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[He folds himself into place on Eren's lap, burying his face into the crook of his friend's neck even further.]
...I don't know what to do, Eren.
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Right now, don't do anything. Just.... breathe. Calm down.
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[Breathe in, breathe out. It's what he does, quietly, doing his best to relax and melt against his friend, enjoying the feel of fingers in his hair.]
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[ Eren, for once, does not know what the right answer is either. He doesn't even know if what he's doing right now is really helping anything in the long run, but all he can feel himself focus on is Armin and how tight his body is against him and that's enough to draw actions from him, at least. If he can at least calm him down, the most immediate issue, maybe other solutions will arise from it. ]
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I'm calm now...I think.
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I started a fight with Marco.
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[ He'd talked about it with Marco, sure, while they were sitting in quiet but he didn't think ARMIN started it with MARCO. ]
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