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I'm outside your door.

then just come in u dont need to nock ever

_{[There's the sound of Eren's front door opening and closing softly with a click as Armin steps into the other boy's apartment. He has nothing with him, just the clothes on his back, as he pulls off his boots and moves to look for his friend. His eyes are puff and red, along with his nose. Eren'll surely notice he's been crying, but he can still try to pretend everything's okay.]}

Eren?

[ Eren peeks out of his kitchen, having been in the middle of making some tea for the evening and hanging out in his t-shirt since he's essentially turned in for the night, giving Armin's face a hard glance the moment he notices the red tinging his pale skin. ]

I'll add water to the pot.

[ But he doesn't mean right away, instead walking over to Armin and looping his arms around him. Can't fake it around Eren Yeager, man. ]

_{[Unlike the prior embrace he'd received from Jean, this one is returned as Armin immediately clings, burying his face into Eren's chest. He's determined to not start crying again, but he isn't doing a very good job of hiding just how upset he is. Even so, he's already putting enough on Eren as it is. He doesn't need to have a meltdown.]}

...Okay.

[ Eren secures him against his chest, holding him just firmly enough that he's squeezing a little. Eren would be able to tell he's upset regardless, so Armin's efforts are doomed from the start. He tips his head down and presses his lips into Armin's hair. Something's wrong, who knows what, but if Armin's had to come here so desperately, Eren's not going to question it. ]

Okay.

_{[The squeeze is returned and Armin's left feeling his chest swell at the pressure of lips against the crown of his head. At least here, he feels safe. At least now he can unwind, if only temporarily.]}

[ Unwilling to let him go, Eren releases him only a little to go to hoist Armin up under his thighs if he allows, intent on carrying him to the couch to fold over him and quiet down whatever noise is going on inside him. ]

_{[There isn't any protest from Armin, but there is a small sound of surprise as he's lifted and eventually placed down on the couch. He looks tired, if not utterly worn out. He's not ready to say anything just yet, but with a little bit of prying on Eren's part, it'll come out.]}

[ Eren's not read to question him yet, instead just looking him over when he's set him down to make sure he's not hurt. He looks alright physically, but that face is miserable. Eren leans and presses a new kiss to his forehead before holding him again, leaning back against the couch and pulling him with him to try and coax him to relax his weight against his body. ]

_{[It takes a few moments before Armin is ready to begin to relax against his friend, resting upon him.]}

Sorry...

Why?

I don't want to stress you out or make you worry.

I make you do it all the time, so let me worry for you, too. If you hold it in, you'll pop.

I really feel like it.

Then let it out. Do whatever you need to.

_{[Inhale, exhale. It's only then that he starts.]}

I can't keep doing this...this place, it's eating me alive, Eren.

Mm... it's hard here, but I think you're struggling the most. This place doesn't suit a person like you at all.

There must be something wrong with me...there are so many things people find normal or acceptable and I can't even begin to understand why...I just don't get it.

The only thing wrong with you is that you're sane. And sensible. But this world is also so different from ours and you're a product of our world.

I thought I'd be more adaptable. If I don't adapt I'm going to die, Eren. This place is driving me insane.

You won't die. No one's going to die. I told you I won't let them touch you.

Listen, you're being too vague. I can't help you this way. What's wrong? Why do you feel like you're going crazy?

Everyone just thinks with their dicks! _{[He's usually not so crude but...it's a good way to get his point across.]} Or they just don't think at all...I suppose it's human nature to be selfish but this place makes people indulgent in all the wrong ways. I hate it, Eren!

_{[He knows he sounds whiny and that all he's doing is complaining, but it's been building for awhile now.]}

Who the hell gets off on choking?! Who in their right mind would think I'd be comfortable with having to live under the same roof as Bertolt?! I don't get it, Eren...I just don't.

[ He sighs. Wow, this is kind of a convoluted situation, isn't it? Needless to ask, someone in 104th house done fucked up or maybe Armin has fucked up, but either way something major has gone down. ]

Woah, woah, listen... you know as well as I do people don't think. We've known that since we were kids and humans haven't changed any here, especially our team. I don't like it either because everyone is idle but you can only push a horse so much before it'll either kick you or you'll run out of strength. In the end, you're not doing what they are. You're not losing yourself to your desires, right? That's what matters if that's what's bothering you.... Don't let their actions drive you up a wall.

As far as that goes, I don't know, really, but I don't know a lot about this sexuality stuff to begin with.

And as far as Bertolt goes... if you don't want to live with him, don't. Move in with me. Bring Mikasa, too, if she wants to come, but Ymir's gone now and you have a choice. I don't have a great place and I only have one bed but... I'd want you here anyway.

She's gone?

_{[That...actually makes him visibly brighten. Good riddance, he wants to say, but he bites his tongue to stop himself from doing so. Instead he moves to settle himself in Eren's lap, resting his head against the boy's shoulder.]}

I want to. I want to be with you, Eren. _{[He finds one of Eren's hands, lacing their fingers together instinctively.]} I told Jean and Marco I'd go back, though...

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